Faith

Faith

I have often walked down this path before

When I dunno why I’m made to lose my faith some more

For a devotee, its easy to believe

But I’m slipping through my own fingers, it’s hard for me

Will my words save this crumpled zeal of mine, Or will I come across this same feeling of hanging by a line

Where I try to keep within my sanity

And it seems too absurd for simple humanity

Is all my strength just a lame charade

Am I a disguised member of the strugglers parade

Every tear I cry, won’t answer me why

I’m back down to praying for the same to thy

To think I ran away and I came this far

Just to stay up one more night without counting a star

And my woe it seemed to have followed me

In my head a secret fear of losing loved one or family

A wanderer free I got chained again

N the gods they laughed on me, the ones I blamed again

For I know not where I need to go

As I find myself stuck in the same painful place I was before

Free my hopeless soul, you are called Almighty

Why can’t the shopping bags give me the promised therapy

Like the billion odd who seem to fix their misery

Why cant the riches give my emotions wings

Why cant I find solace in the planets petty things

Its not so good to be aware that much

Its even worse to acknowledge the naked truth as such

Yet in both ways I err more than fair

Every way I see it I’ve got the shorter side of the square

Coz I’m tuned in more and I am armored less

N I’ve discovered too much in to life’s soulful emptiness

Now I wont take a bribe or go for the ride

I’ve often walked this path from every side

So I sit back here in the dark of the night

N I cry my same old cry half in pain and half in fright
Take me across oh guardian of the ticking clock
Carry me to the morning I’m too weak to walk

Sing me a lullaby and calm my rapid beat
God you conquered me long ago, stop beating my retreat.